no way
not this time.
if you're gonna write a fucking screenplay about this it isn't gonna be  online
and cheapen it as you do all things
at least write it properly and for money
you wonder why I treat a 43 year old man like a child
why don't you explain what it is that I have to deal with all day
trying to move this "experiment " ahead
go ahead write about me ,about this
write me as Frankenstein
for Christ's sake just earn a fucking living and grow up

call me Evan ,call me whatever you want but realize this  Mr Bloom
I have carte blanch to do whatever the fuck I want to you
from the tippy top
get it?
call it Dome call it Proxy
call me fucking god.

this is about something a little bigger than you little bossman
and to see you cheapen it into some fucking writing exercise
something may i remind you you're not supposed to be writing about or talking about AT ALL
knock yourself out
there are consequences as you have seen to every thing yu do and think
that Mr Bloom
is The New Way



oooo if it were only this caressing and coherent or sensical.
no.
I am losing it
this 'experiemnt ' aside
there is nothing to move towards
there is nothing to look back on
I don't even want to wake up anymore

she tells me to keep many blogs.
with different names
she tells me they will be evidence
I say evidence of what
she corrects hersle fand says evident
evident of what
just keep going she says.you didnt need those acting classes.you didnt that job she says she will pay my rent for the next month

god smiles.reading magazines. concurring the price of milk is way toooo high for th earmeee of syrians the faters the fathers. the fat fathers have made this place into their own private cesspool.but live far far away from it. and leave it for the poor to lick i have not obeyed the voice of my teachers. .......... the lights and sound and lights and vision. confuse . everything and everyone and why not the lord for it is all too fast and meaningless. and the style of the times . truth doesnt matter newspapers dont matter. a house of lies/ no truth can come in the heavens open up to a giant light show a lie a blue beam a laser show. it is coming.

september 22


Cecil
called and said he had a dream about me

and said I shouldn't smoke
animals and stuff
don't have much to do all day
i saw a bid on fairfax and the bird seemd to say something to me

insects taste funny
sorta like marlboro lights
insectacidey

Valerie says I must write all my thoughts
of this change
she gave me more pills
I keep 7 blogs.
she says...I am doing so well
that there is something about me

there weren't words yet for what they were doing.
there really was no way around some of the more distasteful elements of cerebral procurement and c temperance

the cleansing process could be difficult

it was important that their brains be augmented and